The devil riding your back

The devil riding your back Nicasio Reed

ten years old when the ocean spat beasts and they
walked the world with strides the size of cities and i hid
i coward-cowered from the noise of it and the dark
until they crouched into mountains and slept left us
shaken shabby in their footprints, peering out.


fire and rubble and everyone died. i 
grew up. we built houses, went to school, 
wore swimsuits, got haircuts, grew old.


when i was a young girl vital,
unstooped, no concrete dust in my hair, 
on my skin, no glass underfoot,
no dry shale taste, i was face-up,
i was raw strong, i sang, i belted.
now i’m hours under the writing desk
staying very, very still, with muffling 
curtains, with scythe smile ghosts i’m
holding onto clock face hands to weather
hydraulic hammers, the kick and the sway, 
the ground’s grand betrayal, the city 
and the beast’s heel pinching like a mouth,
our bodies, teeth ground together so i


became so small a mote a molecule. i lived 
the innocuous life i soft-stepped i folded down 
and down, careful, prepared, precise. 


everyone knows that the mountains are dead and i know that 
they’re alive drool and blood and fire deep inside inhale ten years 
exhale twenty i am ready the taste of grit under my tongue didn’t
fade the gaze on the nape of my neck never left me alone ever 
since they were dead i am grown and this time i’ll be ready.

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Nicasio Andrés Reed is a Filipino-American writer and poet whose work has appeared in Queers Destroy Science FictionStrange HorizonsShimmerLiminalityInkscrawl, and Beyond: The Queer Sci-Fi and Fantasy Comics Anthology. A member of the Queer Asian SF/F/H Illuminati, Nico currently resides in Madison, WI. Find him on Twitter @NicasioSilang.

2 responses to “The devil riding your back

  1. you are incredible and I am in love with you. In a non creepy/completely normal kind of way.

  2. Gabby, I’m so proud to share this Table of Contents with you for your poetry debut! My favorite part of “The Devil Riding Your Back” is the third section–a quiet, deceptive interlude before the ferocious vow at the end.

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